Well, it's hard to believe that it has been over a month since I wrote my last article. It seems like time is slowing down and speeding up at the same time. It seems like I am standing still and at the same time discovering that months gave gone by. Sometimes it feels like I am in a vacuum and sometimes it's more like I cannot keep up with everything that is going on in the world. Time has lost its meaning and although this is exactly the way it should be, it sometimes makes me want to scream with frustration that NOTHING IS MOVING FORWARD!
So, yes that is the way I have been feeling for the past few weeks: stuck. I want things to happen faster, I want a breakthrough, I want to know where I am going next on my journey. This only means that part of me is still stuck in my old belief of time, still stuck in my old belief that if I don't get results fast enough, I am failing, I am not good enough. This whole warped time experience we are going through right now has made me aware of yet some more deeply buried fragments of old beliefs to work on. Oh yes, this is an ongoing journey, it never ends!
This past month, I came close to just giving up on my dream of reaching and inspiring more people with my stories and my videos. I was frustrated and felt like I was hitting one roadblock after another. I was putting so many things out there and nothing was happening. At least that was how I perceived it in my mind. My beautiful mind that so badly wants to be in control and see results, not tomorrow but today. And once our mind has been able to convince us that the roadblocks are there and that really nothing is moving, we invite the energy of giving up. We start believing that we are stuck and our creative energy closes down.
And that is when we need to take a step back and return to our essence. Go inward and find the truth of what is really going on. The truth that was revealed to me was pure and simple: everything is moving and you need to keep going. Yes, that was the message I received: keep going and be aware of all the opportunities that come to you. You see, I thought I was doing that, but because I got stuck in these fragments of old beliefs, I was basically creating a vacuum for myself. And in this vacuum I was unable to see that everything is moving at the perfect pace, beyond this limited concept of time.
Yes, we are moving through this really weird experience of a world that seems to have come to a standstill and at the same time is changing every minute into something we have never seen before. Yes, it is confusing and yes, we might sometimes feel like we just want to throw in the towel and say " I am done with it". But once we realize that this is a huge opportunity to grow and take our journey a step further, we step into the knowledge that the whole universe is moving and that the only thing we need to do, is surrender to its rhythm. And so I keep going...